we can work without the perks just you & me.

2008-07-28T14:13:00.001+08:00

so its not that i haven't been blogging for ages,i've mooved.hahaa
ruinorrapture.livejournal.com
:)

2008-04-27T18:33:00.002+08:00

Last night reminded me that i still loved you all this while.

2008-04-25T23:34:00.001+08:00

blogger sucks,i can't upload all my pictures.
sorry helly!!! D: i'll do it asap,promise.

2008-04-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

Old times.

I want Sophia and I hate doing banners.

Oh no, I'm gonna call Sophia and scold her now.

2008-04-15T00:56:00.002+08:00

Francesca, I won't be seeing you for the next 4 maybe 6 days D: I miss you already.And the thing is I really wanna skip camp and go over.But then there's your mummy.Anyway I hope you have fun without me(somehow).Be safe I love you.

Yours.

2008-04-03T17:42:00.004+08:00

omg,she's like the hottest thing.not in the same league as my baby of cousre :)
but yes,she's mt favourite!!her hair in the burberry ad is gorge!!!super gorgeous..
i wanna smell the fragrance wonder if it's nice.
Agyness Deyn is like wow!

xoxo,

chess.

2008-04-01T18:56:00.002+08:00

everything's been tough this week,it'd be nice if you made it just a little easier for me.you dont have to but yeah..
so it's been crap & i wish it'd just get easier.so that i won't feel like such a fool trying so hard.i keep swallowing the choked up feeling hoping it'd go away but it keeps coming back.

this has to find it's way,fast.
& please be there to catch me.
if not for you then i dont know who will.

2008-03-24T17:02:00.007+08:00

today has been tiring.getting up at 6 in the morning (thank god not 4 in the morning!hahaa!right,not funny. -.- )to go with mummy to Gleneagles.surgery is at 830.we got there,settled down and the nurse came in,she had to shave her cheeps!!zomg right.but it's a hysterectomy!!so duh.

hmmm,so yeah.i soon got over being traumatised.hurr. -.- then they wheeled her in half an hour early to prep her.watching too many grey's anatomy episodes(hahaa!)i felt dumbly emotional.like it was a risky surgery but actually it was really nothing to worry about(according to the filipino nurse!!haha.)now i kinda understand why i really hate hospitals.my aunt came then my godma and we went down for breakfast.soon it was alrdy about 10am so we headed up to wait outside the operating theatre.all the people sitting there had the worst facials ever they were like all sulking,that made me feel tons better.hurr.so waited for what seemed like eons then she came out at like 1145.

i felt so sick while waiting like i was going to throw up,anxious i guess. (oh i got a new Guess wallet!!) right out of point.so,i kept blaming it on my breakfast!heh. yeah,mummy looked pale and,well,different :( so i just kept saying i went around the world and back and she still hadn't come out of the OR.heh.and kept joking with her.she couldn't really laugh cuz she was feeling discomfort from the surgery and it was beginning to hurt so she just kept smiling with her eyes closed,it was so cute.anyways,headed back to the room and she feel asleep very quickly,guess its quite tiring getting wheeled around.and i think it was scary for her going in alone and all.well,she's probably still sleeping and i'm heading back to the hospital soon.it's pouring!!!cabs,come get me!heh.school tmr D: I WANT MY FREAKING PHONE!!hahaa.stupid tetris.hurr

______________________________________

anyhoots.another thing.
joy kuan.
sorry if this comes out or starts off angry.gimme a lil' credit.
you have the nerve asking sophia to ask me to pay.i dont care if you know if i have a phone at the moment or not.i'm sure you know my hse number and can contact me somehow.so first things first,going through sophia really put me off.haven't you made her deal with more then her fair share??second,sophia's right.i don't think i am going to pay,cuz the way you've been handling things is really...i can't even find the word that says it all.suddenly i'm SELFISH?i thought you said you just wanted us to all just come together for the chalet,since when did it all become abt $$?you see how you contradicted yourself?it all comes down to booking the chalet when not everyone had confirmed.i understand that you had to book early,i'm not unreasonable but really,given the situation,i find it difficult to understand how you can keep asking people to pay when they didn't even go?i know it's difficult and you have to pay your mum back?

and i hate to be blunt but is that our problem?i don't wanna seem like i keep blaming you cuz it's also our fault for not going in the end.frankly i would've still gone if you hadn't been the way you were with sophia (she was wrong to have said some things too,i understand.) about going to the bbq and not thinking about how your best friend would feel.between you two,you have your tiffs,that's your problem but seriously joy,it occured to me that if you genuinely wanted us to be there you would've tried not to argue and just get us to come.sophia just wanted to shut up and go.but when you said,"don't come then."that really did it.i'm quite tired of this whole thing.it was days ago,even a week or two ago.can we please stop all this nonsense.

if you think all that i'm saying is nonsense then that's good for you but if you reply to this in a tasteful way like i have tried to do here,then it's worth talking abt,if not then yeah,it ends here.and pls direct all you want to say,to me.and i finally ask you,(i've wanted to for so long)to pls not complain to everyone that's not concerned.

frankly,i don't wanna bring this up but just to tell you,i really cherish wanru,whether you choose to roll your eyes to that.that's up to you but i really don't want our friendship to be strained,just becuz she's there for you,that's good and rightfully her choice.(AND,i know you think otherwise but there are no sides,we're just all trying to stand up for ourselves.) you say what you like but pls think of others.i'm no angel but i don't think i would've hurt my best friend in any situation,or at least seemed to try to.bet you didn't even know you did,cuz i think you take it for granted that sophia's always strong.well,i think i've said my piece.i fully used my right to say something,use yours,but not when you think your fuming mad taking the things i said the wrong way pls?so that's that,have a good day.for the record,i took an hour carefully typing this out,if that doesn't say smth,i dont know what will.

chess.

2008-03-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

partner all happy about her pocky!
mrs.tam gave us chocs in class & she thought she could have a feast cuz of that.heh!

babe got me my black LV Petit Noe on saturdayyyyyyy!! :D

i love it!!!!!

but i love babe more!! :)

in town before going to partner's bbq.

babe,me & csh!

:D

partner's bbq was great & shopping today was awesome!!i wanna save for my Balenciaga wallet!whoots! :D

the love that saves.

xoxo,
chess

2008-02-26T21:01:00.006+08:00

kathrine looks yummy too!

oh goodness she looks gorgeous!best dressed and to think she has a kid?give it up for gen.

well,the week has been crap so far.school's been a pain and i've been getting amused by the gossip going around lately,it's actually funny.heh.well,the only thing i'm kinda looking forward to is partner's bbq on saturday.her mum actually booked two weekends in a row.so funny.well,i guess that's it.

you said it'd never hurt.

xoxo,

chess

2008-02-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

omg,its been ages since i last blogged.guess school and my little rascal have been taking up much of my time.valentine's day is just around the corner and i just can't wait!! :D surprises,surprises!hahaa!well,going v-day shopping with anissa tmr.she's in town now getting some of her stuff,she's nuts.we were supposed to bake tmr but we're too lazy.hahaa.well,i failed my first bio test today okay! D: it's okay,there's a re-test next week!i'll ace it,i hope.hahaa. also collected my N-level cert from the office with anissa today and i still can't believe i got one for english!! :) Os are gonna be ten times worse:(

towned after school with babe today.was supposed to do my tuition homework but we ended up walking around and babe got me a pretty red & black Lamy pen!!it's ex for a pen okay.gosh.hahaa.

anyway,finally called Zeus to meet tmr to discuss the tattoo with sophie.so tmr, anissa and i plan to change in school and sneak out after school to meet babe in town to go see Zeus.whoots!and then shop,shop,shop after!! :)

omg,then i'm gonna be broke.hahaa!babe just told me that her cousins' boyfriend got her cousin a Kate Spade wallet for her birthday!!i want one too.but it won't outdo mummy's Tag for last years' birthday! :D heh.anyway,i shall go shower and sit down for miami ink!
byeee for now.

xoxo,
chess

i think your fine.
;D

2007-12-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness,you could tell the previous post was the work of sophia lee right?hahaa.
your so dead babe!!hahaa.

2007-12-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Francesca doesn't like me wearing boxers
Francesca doesn't like me watching wrestling
Francesca doesn't like me watching seasons of Friends
Francesca doesn't like me watching seasons of Boston Legal
Francesca doesn't like me playing Quadrapop
Francesca doesn't like me not being able to multi-task
Francesca doesn't like me talking to other girls
Francesca doesn't like me using bombastic words
Francesca doesn't like me going on holidays
Francesca doesn't like me working for money for her
Francesca doesn't like me staying so far
Francesca doesn't like me scolding her
Francesca doesn't like me smoking
Francesca doesn't like me not liking her to club
Francesca doesn't like me not spending enough time with her
Francesca doesn't like me being online
Francesca loves me.
I love her.

2007-12-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

well,i have one more day to suffer till babe comes back.i haven't been able to meet with her online cuz my com's down & now that i get to use her lappy,she isn't online :(

babe!!!!please come online soon????the past 8 days have made me so sad.can't wait to see you babe!!!!like really,i'd just be so shocked to see you i'd wanna stare at you & hold you the whole day,so forgive me if i go nuts when i finally see you.hahaa!!!& guess what i saw the Macbook pamphlet in mummy's bag.whoots!!i guess you know what that means huh?well,i hope you have a safe flight & all i really want is you back here.if i could have it my way,i'd want you here now!!!!!!!rahh.hurr.well,i can't wait for you to get home!!the psycho-ly huge gabby & i miss you ever so much.i love you sweets.be safe love.

xoxo,
yours truly.

2007-12-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

so well,last few days spent shopping.town is psychotic!!!hurr.but anyway,mummy brought me to town telling me she needs to get stuff for the office when she brought me to buy my birthday present!!how sweet!!& according to her,Filipino tradition is to get a great watch on your 18th birthday.so in advance she got me a Tag Heuer!!!!!!whoots right?i know.the price could've sent me to the US and back luh.but its so pretty and i love it.thanks mummy!!she got her Kenneth Cole watch as well,its gorgeous.well and shopped for a whole lot of other things.went to the GAP sale yesterday,it really isn't a sale cuz it's still ex!bumped into joyce & pris.that's about all i can rmb for shopping,there's probably more but,i'm to lazy.hahaa

well,it's only the second day & i miss Sophia Lee Wen Ying like crazy.if you can hear me from shanghai,I MISS YOU IDIOT!!HURRY COME BACK,babe. :( but i bet she deafened by all her shopping.hahaa!!we'll joy is keeping me sane,so i'm thankful.thanks psychic!!well,i guess that's all :)

xoxo,
chess

2007-12-04T16:06:00.000+08:00

on the way to meet joy & kel some time ago.

later that night joy,kel,babe & i headed to Sumay's.this is on the way home from Sumay's place,the walk out to the main road from her huge house was like 10km or smth.haha!!

sorry for being lazy to rotate.

another night,recently,having the pool party & bbq at Sum's :)
the bbq caused a fire!!!!haha
i didn't get to swim with babe :(
but i love the swing at the pool side!!! :D

yesterday,met babe in town.went to look for joy,sihui,Sumay & noobs.
while they were playing pool,we went to eat at HK cafe.was being greedy but babe is always practical.heh

the cutest,your the one for me,you make me so happy!
wo ai ni,xiaopi!!

well,i guess that's my days so far..

xoxo,
chess

Something happened for the very first time with you,
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true and everyone's looking round ,
Thinking I'm going crazy but I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you .
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth,
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing,
You cut me open and I keep bleeding love.

MahalKitaBabe <3

2007-11-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

i you,lee wen ying!! :D

today:
see,she makes me carry her all over the house!!& attempts to bite off my ear!!haha.

i get good rewards though!

taka's huge x'mas tree!

my lovely bright x'mas tree! :)

babe's cute pretty x'mas tree!she did it herself!! :D

19th november:
at the chaos+sam,me,bel&nobel chalet!!we slept at 3++.late nights aren't exactly my forte.hurr

21st november:
took a picture if front of the m&m house in town with babe :D

17th november:
anti-smoking hip-hop dance comp,was the best la!!we qualified for finals!
i love ya'll street technique crew!-mwwwwwah!

saw Ling like after forever!love my nerd!

recognise her?the lovely lady in between jamie & i,she's Michelle Brooke from season 1 of "so you think you can dance"!!she's like SO HOT!she and Jamile Mcgee signed my shirt with eye liner!!hahaa.the closest i'm gonna get to pro dancers!!WHOOTS!

i guess the pictures said it all. :)

forever & ever babe.

xoxo,
chess

2007-11-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

i wish i'd been better,more careful.
sorry,i'll try harder.
i'll be better,promise.
just don't cut me off.

& i miss you love.

xoxo,
yours truely.
<3

2007-10-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

pictures are at sophia's blog.

i never thought okay would be the most painful word.
then again,anything for you.
i just hope ...

2007-10-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

i hate feeking like this.
i hate feeling helpless,insecure and like such a brat.
i hate that i'm like this,period.
i wish she didn't exist.

just to say the least.

2007-10-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

i just wanna be all that you need.
p.s. i love you.

2007-10-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

my babes' the best!
she bought me a million and one things these past few days :D
isn't this the cutest photo op!haha :D

i heart my gf!! :D

the shoes i've been wanting!baby bought :)

baby,am i your super woman?cannot be,you got another one lor :(
heh,kidding.

babysweets,
thanks babe for the past few days :D they been awesome and thanks for being there during my Ns.they're over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!whoots!well,i'll try my best to get the 25 things over the course of the next week :) hope i see you tmr babe.i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

xoxo,
chess

2007-10-04T11:10:00.001+08:00

yes,its all childish.you think it was all about seeing her go?and i wanted to be there just cuz of her?your seriously mistaken.yeah,blame it on whatever you want.but don't go say what i feel is different then you cuz the last time i checked you weren't psychic.so if its any use,i could've graduated too,you realise?and amongst the sec5s i have many close friends who i have drifted from but still mean alot to me.that i have maybe fallen out with but i still wanna be there when they have they're special moment?its not about how you feel about seeing pple go,that shouldn't matter.it's whether or not you wanna make an effort to be there to contribute to they're memories.it's they're patrons day,not yours.they leave school only once.yeah,we're different but think abt it.i'm not being unreasonable.and yes,i was very angry,cuz you weren't there for me as a friend when i alrdy promised you,as stupid as it sounds,that we'd cry together,but instead i did it alone.and i found your reason for not wanting to come cuz you didn't wanna see them hold the candles,mild.cuz i thought to myself,"what abt me?i thought she knew it meant alot to me that she came."anyway,that's not the point.having told anissa and sophia that you were irritating is nothing partner,pls don't talk like i killed someone?and don't talk like i never explained anything to you.because i did i sent you a long msg.and even when you didn't reply,i msged anissa to make sure you did.but you still didn't reply.you had to get pple involved when this is between us.you really didn't have to ask sophia what my problem was cuz isn't it i who'd provide the answer?i don't know who else you've told but i don't care.if its efforts to let everyone see your side of the story,you've done good.i'm always the bad guy anyway.what's new.i really wanted to call you and straighten things out but i think i shouldn't cuz it'd only be like everyone else who's made it easy for you.i'm not gonna say i'm sorry cuz there's nothing for me to be sorry about,unless i offended you by calling you irritating.other then that,think about this whole thing,when you've got a clear picture,give me a call please.but i don't wanna confrontation,i want a good talk.if the conversation is gonna contain long sarcastic/defensive remarks,don't bother calling.we have the whole of next year together partner.i hope you'll need me as much as i will need you and i hope i mean enough to you for you to make an effort to make this right cuz i've had enough.i still love you my partner.

2007-10-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

i think i know about & have had more than my fair share of friends coming and going.
you don't know the first thing about me.
i just hope we see eye to eye soon cuz i'm not about to lose another one.

please help me make this right.

2007-09-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

happy sweet sixteen babysweets!!!!!

lunch at marche.

baby's 2nd cake.

omg,check this out!!haha!

babe,
well love,hope you had a blast today.hope you like your 3 best gifts!(hopefully) heh.did i make you tired today?walking to the "secret" romantic venue??heh.sorry!hmmm,and i'd splurge anytime :D hope you really like the stuff babe.enjoy your 3rd cake!!PIG!!heh.
i love you so much!!
nothing would be this great without you :D

xoxo,

chess

2007-09-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

babe,
i dont want what happened today to happen again.i love you and that over rides the worst pictures of me.i know i'm ugly so you can post all my ugly photos.whatever you have left?sorry i made you angry and made you lose all the silly photos you live of me.i'm sorry i shouted too.i never wanna feel the way i felt today.i love you baby and i always will.it does matter :)

xoxo,
i'm yours :D

2007-09-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

babe,
i'm so glad i've got you and that things are heaven :) i love you sweet pea!

you have to leave the left behind.don't let her bring you down cuz your so much more then what she makes you out to be.all of us know that and i hope you see that.don't compromise anymore and please there's no use being nice,she clearly deserves none of it.and this shouldn't get to her,cuz i'm addressing this to you,not her.i really hope someone who'll treat you right will come along cuz you've gone through so much shit which wasn't worth it at all.she can go back to her web of lies cuz i'm gonna make sure you no part of it psychic.through all these harsh words,i hope you see the concern.your twin and i love you loads and we only want the best to come out of all of this.please don't give in anymore.you've done more then your fair share.the hurt will fade,at least try.cherr up?-hugs!

to think you'd run away till the last second,that's really low.she deserves to know everything she wants to.so i hope you do justice to your words since you say you care about her and give her a good explaination.not one that sugar coats everything that you've done.i was right about you from the start.i hate to tell everyone,i told you so.

2007-09-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

i love you,i hope that's okay? :D

2007-09-07T21:16:00.001+08:00

Hello i miss you too :'(
<3

2007-09-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

if so,
why the messages saying stuff that shouldn't be said when you know we're together?
i mean why should i hate you if you didn't do that?all i get annoyed at you about is that you having no respect for someone else?not that i demand any cuz i assumed it was basic courtesy.did i send her msges with that kind of content when ya'll were together?no right?and if i did call you a bitch,i'm sorry,cuz i really can't rmb and i don't wanna be petty about this.and for the record,i don't hate you.you're not a bitch.if you didn't notice,hate is a really strong word,so i don't hate you.so go ahead and hate me all you want cuz i'm not shallow.i'm way over it and i wasn't tired to start with.so you happy?i addressed the situation.end of discussion.cuz i don't wanna end up being the bad guy when i did nothing wrong.you have the nerve.

2007-09-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

oh how i miss the dance crazy dayssssss!!!!! :D i miss these sugar girls i spent so much time working so hard with! :) dance is WHOOOOTTS!

2007-09-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

BABE,
YOU'RE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO D-E-A-D. -.-

this isn't enough revenge!!rahh.

2007-08-30T19:17:00.000+08:00

i love this board.was just looking at it.thanks babe! :D

Baby,

i was a mess when i finally reached your place this afternoon.thanks for making it all better.i love you sophie dy!! :D

xoxo,

chess

2007-08-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

my wonderwall :D

Babe,
you made me so happy today.thanks for the movie! :D mahal kita,asawa!
-i was born to tell you i love you :)

about time i flooded ya'll with pictures.hahaa! :)
i miss my dyed,bob and most of ALL,my long hair!!!

this is when i dyed it,cant really see cuz i clipped up my fringe.heh

these are all pictures when i had long hair :( above,me & babe.

me,joycelynn,mabel.

joycelynn,me,sarah.i miss my our hotttt tans!!haha

joyce,me and babe on new year's eve at esplanade to countdown to new yaers! :D

sarah and i

psychis and i!ahhhh!!my cute bob :D

on my birthday last year with sarah and joyce!!lots of smooches!!whoots!

well,guess that's about it..
can't wait for Ns to be over!!!!i got back chem paper 2 and i passed!!!!!!apparently only less than 10 in the whole of 4na passed??whoots!

xoxo,
chess

2007-08-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

hi sophie!!!love love :D

hope you still love the music boxx :)
ilu <3>

_______________________

i look like crap but my new babydoll is cuteness!

anissa,jams & i :)

my babydoll!!love you lots!

so freaking cute!!! :D

i will never let you fall,
i will stand by you forever. :D

today was alright.my stomach pains are relentless.i've been lying in bed for hours on my tummy hoping it'll help but i guess i'll just see the doctors tmr if it doesn't give in.over to sophie's house after school today,baby waited for me after her paper :) before heading back to her house went with joy to ikea for lunch.loved the time with you today :D headed home around 7,was ultra late and had minimal amounts to eat at steamboat dinner :( god bless my tummy :(

xoxo,
chess.

i mean it,
keep your hands off my girl.

2007-08-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

your gaurdian angel

B,
i have so much to say but don't know where to start.i have so much to tell you,but don't know how.so frustrated,cuz i just don't know what to do to make things better,not that they're horrible but i just wanna make you happy and i guess that's up to you as well.i've done all i can,now its your turn.i've done so much in the course of these two years.and i think it's about time you do smth too.i love you to death and i want this all to work out.so don't waste my hours at my bedside k?you know what i mean,love.i'll always be here that's not gonna change.

when your gone,
the pieces of my heart are missing you.
when your gone,
the face i came to know is missing too.
when your gone,
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day,
and make it okay,
i miss you.

i've never felt this way before,
everything i do reminds me of you.
and the clothes that you left,
they lie on the floor,they smell just like you.
i love the things that you do.
when you walk away i count the steps that you take,
do you see how much i need you right now?

xoxo,
chess.

mahal kita,asawa.

2007-08-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

It isnt a crime to want
A little space to breathe
But you will be fine
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here when you change your mind
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here for you baby
Anytime
Im feeling you pull away
'cause letting go isnt easy for me
But you'll never fly
With someone elses wings, I know
Wherever you go
I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same
And I will be your comfort every day
Do you hear the words I say?

B,
i love you,my evrything.
take your sweet time,
i'll be here for as long as it takes girlfriend.
<3

xoxo,
chess

2007-08-21T20:51:00.001+08:00

today was difficult.
waited till 5 for smallfart to finish lit lessons.sent her home she was sick and that's all.get well soon you.

keep your hands off my girl.

2007-08-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

revenge!!hurr

cutest thing alive!

10th aug 2007,thanks for making me :D ,please continue to?

hot air baloon!i wanna go!sophie,you promised?-pouts

thanks for today,babe.

omg,ya'll are the funniest!

nightmares tonight for sure.heh

well,today was alright.after school was good.went to the airport :) with smallfart.ate fish & co.walked around planning our trips together!set ah sophie?heh then we finally went to the viewing mall.watched the planes take off :) it was really nice.we should go more often smallfart!on the way back to take the train home,B,got me gummies and choc :D well guess that's all..

think about what i said while we were watching the planes?

i need you.

2007-08-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

PourMonAnge,
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you,I'll be the one
Cuz you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay
Use me as you will,Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning grey
I will never let you fall,I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around,I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes
If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

xoxo,
me

mahal kita,sophia.

2007-08-17T21:17:00.000+08:00

don't let go?

i know it's not the simplest thing.but all i want is for you to be happy,
with me by your side.
if i don't fight our battle,
nobody's gonna fight it for us.

the river runs,and the river hides,
out to the ocean and under the sky,
i promise you the answer will come.
hold on to patience,
and just watch for the sign.
everything in it's time.

these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain. <3

please say you won't...

2007-08-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

i feel kinda fucked up,i don't know what's wrong with me,i really don't.it's just that everytime i hope things in general get better they don't.lit today killed my hand and i.all of us didn't expect that story to come out.anyway.geog wasn't too good and same for bio.i'm trying to get over the shit of being upset over my papers but it just hasn't worked.at least i haven't cried over a paper.i'm improving.

and certain things really make me angry.really fucking angry.i don't know why,but they do.maybe its's mere existance but really,i shouldn't care,i really shouldn't cuz it's gonna do me no good.maybe i should force myself to forget sensitivity on this subject but it just seems to bother me.it's like smth picking at you.once you've done your best to put it out of mind something happens.i think now i understand.i know its the same with me,but i try to forget and i'll never let it get in the way of us.

well,papers are over on monday,glorious monday.but then i have a short spand till Ns which is fucking terrifying but oh wells.i guess that's the bulk of all that i have to spit out,for now.

xoxo,
chess

i just wanna lose myself in you,
won't you let me.

2007-08-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

happy 2nd my love :D
your the bestest ever!
mahal kita <3

last thursday,the day before the wedding,baby got me these to cheer me up!:D

thanks,B!!your the sweetest :)

the wedding on the 3rd of august :)

my bridesmaids' bouquet

alex and i

my cousin and her husband!

the cutest bride and groom!he's canadian.haha

national day fireworks with baby :D

well, i've finally gotten mt hands on the com.everyone's been constantly using them.there's loads more of nice pics from the wedding so i'll put them up after i get them from everyone elses cameras :) guess that's all for now

thanks for the best recent few years.they've been the best with you with me.i couldn't ask for much more.your the only one who knows me best and thank you for always standing by me.i'll never leave and you know i will always be here,just for you.i love you baby <3

xoxo,

chess

2007-08-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

the bestest baby ever!!!!!:D

well,today was alright.past few days have been bad though.but everything's fine with kim :) hi kim!!let's put everything behind us and not let us doubt the trust yeah? :)

hmmm,well.baby's been great this week through all the mayhem.thanks for beening there when i couldn't take it.i haven't felt this way in a while.i'm feeling screwed cuz i need to do alot of catching up for studies and prelims are real soon.and i haven't danced in awhile,depressing.hmmm,guess that's it..

love you very much,B.

2007-07-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

B,
i'm sorrryy i left you alone on saturday.well,not exactly cuz i was msging you.heh.i hope your alright.i'll always be here,you know that and i'll never leave you to deal with anything alone.i'll won't make the same mistake twice,at least i'll try.you'll be okay,i know you will cuz you know better.thanks for lunch today,B.you managed to make me fatter again!hahaa.and thanks for spending sunday with me! :D heh.love you to bits,Darhl.your the best damn thing that my eyes have ever seen ;)

mahal kita <3

xoxo,
fessie lee :D

2007-07-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

PourMonAnge,
When I see your smile,
Tears run down my face I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.
I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you,I'll be the one.

Cuz you're my true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
Cuz I'm here for you,
Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay.

Use me as you will,
Pull my strings just for a thrill.
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning grey.
I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

<3
your my guardian angel.
at least i was still with you today.
xoxo,
yours always.

2007-07-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

kimberly lim.
you need to keep your thoughts and actions to yourself cuz however big you think you are its really just making you seem alot smaller.those beady eyes that stare it really sickens me.i really don't know why friends like you are worth this but i guess i just feel like giving you a piece of my mind.cuz you did the same to someone else.but the difference is,i dare to direct it straight to you and not be cowardly indirect.so stop all this under your breathe talking or talking loudly purposely cuz its just childish.if you don't have smth nice to say,don't say it at all.didn't you learn anything in the last 15 years you've been alive?obviously not.no humility and integrity at all.everyone has the freedom of speech i agree,but you abuse it.there's a limit to everything and there's no reason for you to pick on pple you don't like.imagine it being done to you.and to hadley too,i've known you for so long.since you came back into our class,i thought you changed,but now i think you've proved the past right.everything was fine till you came along.i guess whatever is left of our friendship is back to square one,gone in fact.and we're supposed to be two years older,with more maturity.guess not.i regretted telling the few pple i've bumped into during the hols and asked abt you that you've changed for the better.i guess everyone gets a little caught up won't you say?so stop all this cuz its really not your place to do it all.and its not my place to say,but what the hell,i've alrdy said it.so thanks for reading this and get it through you thick skulls. thankyouverymuch.

for the record i did this on my own accord,its what i ahve to say,not her.so leave her alone.

to everyone who's read this i'm sorry you've had to experience a waste of space in my blog,it will never happen again :) meanwhile,i'm not being mean,it's just that some pple don't know when to stop without being told.guess that's all..

xoxo,
chess

baby,all i want is you.

2007-07-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

time at fullerton waiting for the fireworks.

__________________________

fireworks were nothing without you,B. :'(

on the way home.i miss holland,where my nice big house is.
D:

guess the pictures did the talking.

<3>
make the consciencous effort.
i still love you the same,more in fact.

xoxo,
chess

2007-07-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

baby did this for me :D
its so cute,the suspenders!

B,i miss this day!
cutest thing alive :D

B, i miss the holidays!!heh.
today i had geog mocks,it mad me very very :( cuz i wasn't prepared but tried not to be :( cuz i had little time with B today.and i'll have little time with her tomr too :( hmm,school's killing me and i have tuition tmr.i forgot to ask mummy for the fees!i'm dead,second time i'm forgetting.grr.well,i guess i don't have much to say..

xoxo,
chess

If you see my girl,
Just tell her I miss her smile.
Tell her I'm counting the minutes,
Gonna see her in a little while.
I know when she holds on to me,
She's the one thing that I could never live without.
And tell her I love her.
love you prince charming <3

2007-07-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

breathing for two.

Pour Mon Ange,
your better than amazing,you know that.
your everything i could ever want and you take care of me so well.
i couldn't ask for more,
than to be in love with someone as great as you.
you know i don't care if anything's cliche,i'll just say it,cuz i mean it.
and i mean it when i say you complete me :)
you have no idea how happy you make me.
and i think you also have no idea how i fall in love with you all over again everytime i see you,B.
its baffling how we've gone through so much,i wouldn't wanna brave through it with anyone else :)
cuz i know i wouldn't be the person i am without you.
and i wouldn't wanna be anyone else for that matter.
thank you for always being there.
although i know you try your best to listen to my babbling,but i think no one could do better.
and for all my man-ja-ing,i'd wanna say sorry,but i know its okay :)
all the breakfasts "you" made,mine are made with more love!kidding baby.
but really,i have gabby cuz of you!heh.
well,you know i'd be nothing without you and that nothing would be as good without you.
your the best damn thing :D
and all the things you do for me that you think are little,its what i love most.
but most of all,you,
your just amazing and that's never going to change.
i love that smile and that pout.it garauntees instant forgiveness,rahh!haha
(i hope i have that effect on you too!ass,heh)
well baby,your the bestest i could ever have,i couldn't wish for more.
and everything i ever do would be worth it if its for you.
so i hope i've made you smile at the com screen for the last few minutes,
cuz i meant every word of this..
i love you,B,very much.

<3,
cupcake :)

move down to me,
slip into you.

2007-07-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!
<3
-flying kisses!

2007-07-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

psychic,
do your name justice? :)
cuz i love you and hate to see you this way.
you know your twin & i got your back :)

2007-07-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

B,actually made a tee for meeeee! :)

my night study surprise :)

B,i love the board!my first and only!thanks :D

omg!aren't the candles like :D

HAPPY EIGHTEEN MONTHS & 1ST TOO,B!! :D

today was awesome,waited for school to end!then orals,thank goodness it was good.then cabbed to B's house and she gave me a huge surprise!! :D made me wait for 10mins,but it was worth sitting at the void deck alone.heh.was dot dot dee when i reached the sixth floor!thanks,B!!really loved it.keep the candles and we'll light it next time,when i stay over or smth k? :) night study,we ordered macs and pigged out.then soon was time to head home.thanks baby for today,it was wow :) and i really love the board!hope you love my present too :) well,i guess that'd be it for now.

woaini baobei!
xoxo,
chess

<3

you made my day :D

2007-07-03T18:26:00.000+08:00

well,the past few days i've been lazy to put up the pics from when i went to pet lovers centre at holland,i went during the weekend.i'm so gonna work there after Ns!!doggies galore!hehwell,here they are... :D

this is my fave,cuz B likes yorkshires and i think it's super cute!we'll get one soon k B? :D

there were two male schnauzers,salt&pepper and a black schnauzer!

look at the shar pei with the saggy skin,cuteness!mummy loved it la.heh

there were 2 male toy poodles and one female!
i was begging mummy to get the female!!

four mnth old retreiver!!

awww!look at how it sleeps.doesn't it remind you of coffee?just that if you ask mabel,coffee isn't as twisty as this when she sleeps aye?heh

3 or 4 month old cocker,look at its eyes!!heh

two 2 mnth old daushounds(sp?!)

doesnt this look like gretchen?!

but this is gretch,i melted when i saw the schnauzer above.i miss gretch like mad!!!!! :'(

the two of the best girls in the world!
look at what anissa did to the ice cream?!

B,check out the pic above,it says exactly what i wanna tell you :D

today.well,i headed to town with partner and anissa for lunch and to go get smth partner had to buy.chicken rice at fareast 5th floor :D then to walk around.anissa soon left to meet her darhling and i went with partner to buy tako pachi(sp?!) then walked to the bus stop.i swear partner had like the worst speech problems today!!haha.she's gonna kill me when she sees this.whoops!anyway,headed home.when i got on the bus,baby called me like finally!!!! :D didn't see her much today then talked to her till she reached home and had the rest of the bus ride by myself and now i'm here..so i guess tht's it?heh

can't wait for next tuesday too! :D

xoxo,
chess

B,
your so dead cuz you posted all those horrid pics of meeeeeeee!!!yuck!yuck!yuck!
but i still L O V E you!!alot,alot alot :D
-muah!
<3

2007-07-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

oh it's what you do to me.
times square can't shine as bright as you.

today was :D spent it with B.read my TeenVogue while waiting at her place for her to finish tuition,slept for awhile then was late to meet the rest at the bowling alley cuz uncle has some tournament soon?yupp.he used to be some national player i think.quite cool.well,tummy's hurting for god knows what reason.its really not convenient to have excruciating pains.ugh.back to school tmr.sucks la.i don't know if i have hmwk and i have tons of tuition stuff to do.sickening la.B's booked by her twin tmr :( think i'll come home or smth..it's okay psychic!you can have her for a day.only!haha.kidding.went shopping on sunday,got new underwear!whoots!pierre cardin and stripey ones!!whee.and finally got my memory card for my phone!can put lots of songs :)yupp,guess that's it..

xoxo,
chess

B,
mahal kita <3
-muah!

2007-06-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

we were made for each other,B.

today's been okay.
i don't feel so good.i don't know why.maybe a few tiny little things bother me.i really shouldn't let it get to me,i know.cuz its really not worth thinking about.its not even worthy of me caring but you know me.its the little things that get to me.well,i really don't wanna be like this.maybe i'm just missing a certain someone so much.my monthly is over,so i can't figure out why i'm like this.maybe i'm home alone for the first time in a long time and listening to sappy songs,but that's beside the point.so i guess i won't bother explaining.

you,the lifeless,ignorant,irritating person behind the private number phone calls to B,it's really very childish.and you'd know that not by being mature,but by simply putting whatever demand of english you have(pun intended)to read this and B's blog,to stop your nonsense.cuz she really deserves respect,she's older than you and if you younger pple don't understand,age comes with a certain amount of respect.not demanding any but at least give it to B,someone you supposedly care about.and if anyone wanted to know anything,ask her along with giving her your name,don't be a coward.it only speaks worse of yourself.i don't know why you pple like to hide from everything.so that's that.and by the way,she's taken.get that through your thick skull.

xoxo,
me.

B,
i love the way you love me.

-i never thought i needed you there when i cried.

2007-06-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

today, there :)

okay bye.

2007-06-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

i love this girl like crazy :) definitely the best thing that's ever happened to me.B,i'd be nothing without you loving me.

nice union jack aye?i'm not patriotic at all,but yeah :)

went to borders yesterday.
B,thought this was cute k,so we got 2! :D she rocks!!

well, today.wasn't very good.lessons were kinda stress but partner and anissa were there to make it psycho some how.heh.yupp,waited for baby then headed for lunch and headed to popular to get some stuff she needed.sent her to partners' then headed home,long 61 bus ride,love long bus rides :)

partner,cheer up please.i really do love you very much,more then i show it.and i hate to see you like that k?it's not your fault and you know anissa and i are always here.this will turn out the way they should.don't fret.love you much,smile please?-hugs you tight tight :)
biggest fan!thanks for saving my shoulders and back!you tha' bomb! ;)life saver.i owe you a day out!soon soon!
well,i guess that's all..

xoxo,
chess

i love my lollipop :D

2007-06-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

ben & jerry's on sunday.
saw "i <3 you" and thought of B. :D
and the rest were pictures from goofing around today.
baby's the best :)

well,enough of pictures,first day back to school was alright,got to see baby :) then went with her to service her phone after school.had late lunch,we were both starving.had char kway tiao and hokkien mee at food republic.walked around a little then headed home cuz we were both so beat.short happenings today i guess.heh

B,
you've always be so special.and i never realised that you were such a big amount of my support.this year's such an important one for us both and i don't know if i can take the seriousness of it all,you know me.but it really means the world that you believe that i can not only do it, but do it well.i'm really starting to get scared and you always remind me that your there.words really can't begin to tell you how much you mean to me.and plus,you know how bad i am with words.heh.so i'll just leave them to actions cuz you know what they say,about actions out doing words.your my everything,and i love you very much. <3

xoxo,
chess

2007-06-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

well,today was kind of a bore.but the upside,spent most of the day on the phone with baby :D kept telling myself to study,but mummy asked me to help for the bbq soon after i got off the phone.after helping then went to the play ground with the kids cuz auntie didn't wanna bring them.some of the pics are so retarded but who cares.hurr.last night forgot to mention that i had din tai fung for dinner after ages of craving for xiao long baos.heh.then walked around with mummy.she got a pretty Guess bag and she got me the Picard bag that i wanted some time ago.it was 200plus then went down to 139 then i got it at 69,unbelievable right?heh.the art of shopping.heh.and mummy said she never owned a Picard bag when she was my age,so cartoon.the we walked past a travel agency and she talked non-stop abt us going to hong kong in october maybe and shopping like psychos.i tell you,sometimes my mum is the most amusing person i know.heh.well,i guess that's it for today..here you go,the pictures.don't mind the unglam-ness of the monkey bar pls.hurr.and excuse the direction of the pics,forgot to rotate and was lazy to go back to edit.heh.look silly turning side ways for a little while,heh! :)

playgrond with cousins before dinner was fun :D
didn't know i was such a kid.hurr!

don't let go,
cause i never wanna stop feeling this touch,
so familiar.

B,mahal kita.
<3

2007-06-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

orals sucked.then spent the day with B.was another boring day in town except for nancy drew and waiting for the trains and of course the company :).guess i'll just leave you with the pictures.haha!

:D

i know we look retarded,but it was just so funny!

xoxo,chess
<3

i'd give anything,
just to see you happy.

2007-06-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

nothing else matters anymore cuz your in my arms again.

baby woke me up even before the alarm could.hurr.she said she was going home after the papers so i got irritated and went back to sleep.how stupid right?woke up at 11 and got a heart attack!went to wash up and got ready in a record breaking,5 MINUTES k?proud of myself.anyway,rushed outta the house planning my journey and hoping to get to school in time so that i'd be there before baby's paper ended.so that when she called i could say "i'm at the bus stop waiting alrdy."haha,but that didn't happen.was walking out to the bus stop when baby called at 11plus saying she was done?!goodness.i grabbed a cab as soon as i could.cabbed to pick baby and she wasn't feeling well so headed back.the bloody cab fare was like whoa!$19.20 okay??hurr.it's okay baby :)had the best porridge for lunch :) we decided to be pigs and slept for like an hour plus.oh,before that we had to stay out in the living room for lunch cuz her cute grams was plastering/painting the walls in her room.the way he does things is so cartoon.heh.well its late and i have orals tmr,kill me please?!nervous!omfg.

xoxo,
chess

you make me :D

2007-06-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

i guess pictures are all for now :D

2007-06-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

Pour Mon Ange,
:D
<3<3<3

2007-06-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

finally got our tofu men with smallfart the other day,made me super :D yupp,the headed over to watch a funny canto/chinese/korean movie then halfway stupid ass of a smallfart turned it off and asked me to go sleep?psychotic luh.heh.after awhile lunches at her grams place.i love eating there :)her grandma is so cute!heh.yupp then came home early,trying to beat mummy home,and i did.hurr.well,school to pick up smallfart tmr then study!!bloody prelims.ugh.guess that's all for now.

xoxo,
chess
<3

we'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds.

<3 my jelly :D

2007-06-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

PourMonAnge,
i wouldn't have you any other way.
<3

i could fly looking in your eyes.

2007-06-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

today was kinda tiring.walked around alot with smallfart.we did the window sticker thing.liked it alot.and had yami yoghurt after like ages of craving for it.heh.well,i need to go shopping!!everytime i go out i tell myself i need to save for something so yeah,i have a long list.well not long,but a few stuff.hahaa.great singapore sale should be extended.oh!went to haji lane on saturday,it rocks okay.there's this nice shisha(sp??) place.and great teh tarik!!whoots.yupp,guess that's it.and for pictures,go to sophia lee's blog cuz she posted everything,i mean everything.even all my unglam shots.hurr.sophia,if your reading this,your SO dead.

the things i thought you never knew about me,
you actually understood.

2007-06-09T13:52:00.000+08:00

i miss you so damn much.
please come back quick.
<3,
yours.

2007-06-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

suddenly i see,
why the hell you mean so much to me.

2007-06-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

there's not one thing i wouldn't give,
for one more chance tonight.

i've been here before,
i'm fighting your war.
and you ask me why.

i want,
"a small world" again.rahh!
i want you.

2007-06-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

here i am,but your scared.
tell me who isn't?
take a chance,for once.

i've only got two words..
fuck it.

would you say it was wishful thinking?
i hope your answer would be no.

2007-05-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

help me.[you were here the last time this happened,where are you?!ineedyou.]
hold me and say its alright to cry.

nothing's been going terribly right since i left you this afternoon.i really don't know what was so hard to tell me.its a two way thing.well,now i'm going through what i went through last year,that happened almost every night.just that the difference now is that we have an audience.how embarrassing,i know.its always been just the three of us.and i'm so used to seeing and hearing everything alone.i'm so used to knowing that the four walls protected me from anyone knowing.but i guess now i couldn't care less.i mean,what's the use in trying to hide what happens to million kids a day.its just that in my case,i haven't talked about it once and there's this whole lot of fuckshit that's built up everytime i hear the screaming and shouting.just as well,the shouting and slamming is over.i really hope there'll be no whacking and slapping.it's gone quiet.means at least someone's done talking.and all this is because someone had too much to drink again.let me just say he's selfish,he never thinks about anything else but himself.i just heard that she owned half of the old house and didn't get her share.fuck him!fuck men.

i just what the simplest of things.
boy,iloveyouso.

and i just wish you'd call.

2007-05-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

hello chess,
i took the trouble <3

2007-05-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

headed to meet smallfart today.then to her parents office studied and photocopied my lit stuff.then headed to meet mummy and all for dinner.went to hooters.the girls there suck la.they need to open their eyes when hiring okay,lik seriously.heh.walked around for a bit then headed home.damn tired,gonna crash soon.guess i'll just leave ya'll with pictures.cheers.

a life without you scares me more.

xoxo,
chess

2007-05-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

i wish i could see the world through your precious eyes.

picked smallfart up from school then headed to town for lunch,then trained to tampines.slept on the heavenly bed till around 6.we're such pigs,smallfart.we need to stop sleeping so much.hahaa.but i L O V E your bed.haha.doesn't tigger smell like me?haha!whoopps.hmmm,then homed at around 7plus.love simple days :)

wet sport?
spoilt blanket?
smallfart your the funniest.heh.

I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your ~~Romeo~~ juliet
Hey ~~Juliet~~ romeo
(its so cheesy,but its so cute!you were singing it today. :D )

2007-05-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

today,towned after church to some hotel for the best nasi padang.then headed all over town to shop.didn't get anything much.guess cuz everywhere was crowded and i hate crowded places.smallfart wasn't there to protect me from all the pushy pple,i guess that's why.heh.hmmm,then headed to ikea.got this cute bag.will use it when i go tanning!speaking of tanning,saw this uber hot bung,she was so tanned.i wanna go to the beach!!rahh.smallfart,go tanning with me soon k?whee.yeah then headed home after ikea.so beat.thank the lord there's no school tmr.

you,
all the best for your chinese Os tmr,iloveyou!-huggs.
know you can do it ;)

baby,it's you.

xoxo,
chess

2007-05-27T11:01:00.000+08:00

you deleted my previous post of your pictures?????
FEANCESCA LEE YOUR DEAD.like seriously.

rahh.

2007-05-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

for you i will.
i could fall asleep in those eyes.

just came back from midsummers night dream with smallfart.it was damn good!very funny.heh.and time with smallfart was awesome.got home in a giffy after going for bak kut teh (sp??) at river valley with smallfart's parents cuz they sent me home! :) thanks auntie and uncle!hurr.everyone's still out so i'm alone at home :( tmr's daddy's birthday.ugh.dreading it :'( smallfart!help!sigh.well,guess that's it for today.

xoxo,
chess.

i don't know why,
i always seem to wanna give you another try.

2007-05-26T01:37:00.000+08:00

if everything could just last.

today,ended at around two plus.waited for smallfart to finish her talk then headed off.went over then slept while she had a shower.she claimed that i sleep like a pig and its cute?what rubbish.heh then hung around until around 7.her mummy asked me to stay for dinner three times.so cute la.heh.then headed home after that.mummy called when i was at kallang and asked me to meet her and the circus in town.walked like crazy then caught a cab from PS home.i'm so beat,i'm just gonna chuck recent pics and head to bed.cheers!

you,

don't cry anymore k?i'll always be here.iloveyou <3

<3>

so sweet :)

look!the puzzle smallfart did for me! :D

resembles a pig eh?hah!

love love this!

smallfart...

again.heh

sunset!whee

playground :)

omg,so nice right!

esplanade roofie!

car ride to dinner :D

rahh!!

sweet smallfart!

busride

2007-05-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

i could fly looking in your eyes.

i swear i have never slept as much in school as i did today.headed off straight after school today.train ride was long and sleepy.watched love actually with smallfart :D thanks for today.ate xiang mian at smallfart's.super love it and her grandmas' eggs :D then after love actually headed home.
tmr,pirates of the carribean with smallfart :) whee.and midsummers night dream on saturday.whoots.can't wait.picnic with the ANTS smallfart.heh.well,guess that's all for today.heading to watch prison break! :D my hot,hot,hot wentworth miller!

you,
i'm sorry for today.it's my fault.please don't be sad k?if you can't,i'll get it back for you tmr.don't fret babe.

"i could fly when you smile."-you

you all i need.
be my hero.

i swear i love you like never before. <3
i always will.

2007-05-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

and i totally missed you today :'(

be my little mr bossy ;)

I always thought i needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

i wish you'd take me as yours again?

2007-05-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today.
headed to town at around 4 to get the mid summer's nights dreams tix.
walked all over looking for something then headed to mummy's office.went to raffles city for sakae then homed.pretty boring day.urgh.

there you go,now i know.

2007-05-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

I'd take another chance, take a fall

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

But it's nothin new.

2007-05-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

first off,fuck geog.
and ss and math la okay.
failed all three.
after school towned with partner for kel's birthday lunch.actuaaly wasn't planning on going but you know wanru,silly girl can never travel alone.wasn't in the best mood so headed home after tht.

how the hell would you feel if you were me
and still loving someone this much?
she's replaced everything she possibly can.

if only she knew what i knew but couldn't say.
fuck it la.

2007-05-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

today,lunched at tampines mall,best nasi lemak :) then headed to smallfarts'.lazed around i suppose?heh.yupp,smallfart wasted more water.heh.then rushed to meet mummy and all for dinner.long beach seafood at east coast.they picked me up with the new car from the airport how convenient right?heh.yupp,poured while we were there then had trouble getting to the car.so finally now i'm home.pig of a sophia lee has fallen aslp so think i'm gonna crash too.i'm fuck beat smallfart!! ;) tml might go see phones!!!whoots. :D your welcome for the company,best.

damn,you have no idea.

mi amor <3

2007-05-17T15:16:00.001+08:00

who said life was fair when you live without a care.
-
i'm surrounded by a million people but i still feel alone.
-
but like a fool i waited for much too long to let her know the truth.but she's gone away,maybe she'd stay,if she only knew.tell me how did i let her get away.cause i guess love is so easy to feel,but the hardest thing to say.

why babe?

-if you can seem as happy with her as you are with me,then why do you need me?

2007-05-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

i can fly looking in your eyes.

today's the last day of papers!was happy then got back my fucked up english marks.have a feeling its gonna cintinue on friday.ugh.anyway.headed to town with partner after going to her place to change.rushed to buy sophia's shirt.they didn't have the black one.sorry bestbest!so i got the greenish-brown one in the smallest size.heh.hope you don't swim in it tml.heh.hmmm,then walked to topman to meet smallfart and the rest of chaos.she didn't know i was coming town.heh.surprised her with the shirt.hope you really love it babe!my whole weeks allowance plus a little more.heh.yeah then after awhile we left and headed to raffles city that area.sat at city link and crapped for awhile cuz we were so tired.then decided to walk to esplanade library and make use of their comfy sofas.read dance mags :D then went up to the rooftop [double :D] "watched" the sunset and took loads of pictures with my dearest smallfart.was the best time smallfart!stayed there till about 7.sorry bout the droplets at the end smallfart.really meant what i said smallfart,that's all.then decided to be nice and walk to city hall with smallfart instead of taking my straight bus.and now i'm here.so i guess that's it for today?

thanks smallfart for making me dot dot dee after my bad day! -huggs and kisses! <3

-
love you so.
wish you were mine all over again.
then i wouldn't feel so guilty about loving you more everyday.

<3,
me.

2007-05-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

your still the one for me.

today,headed over to SOP'S :) haha.so funny to call her that luh.anyway,after lunch we took long bus ride back to her place!love it la.she's a pig!she slept and made my shoulder stiff!you owe me massage smallfart!heh.we bought roo puzzle :D i was SUPER DUPER happy.smallfart is so sweet okay.sweetest thing ever. :D she did alot of it.so pro la.and i just helped out.yupp,sophie,wasn't the distracting fun?well i had fun.haha!your just so cartoon k.after doing the puzzle smallfart bullied me as usual then she sent me to the station :) then went to meet mummy and circus.hurr.yupp tml's math.i swear you can just kill me!can't wait for the puzzle babe.we'll go look for a frame k?i'll pay :) oh oh!smallfart!i wanna go watch 200pound beauty!heh.and yes bestbest,the lower sec is irritating.they're so noisy la.

-
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on youI can barely move but I like it. she's the sweetest drug.

to you i'd be forever faithful,
i wanna be the one you always needed.
then i hope you'll see the heart in me.

2007-05-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

"cause your making yourself out of reach?"

i wish you'd use what the 1/4 left of your heart's for.

irreplaceable.
-
i wish you could see what you do to me,
makin me go weak in the knees.

2007-05-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

today,headed out for dinner at hillman.aye,smallfart.your mum was the one who said it was a small world.heh.you knew i was there luh.so sweet of you to come.hurr.stupid la.couldn't talk to you.anyway,i haven't studied for bio,i'm so dead la.ohoh.and thanks nut for doing my blog.love love it.thanks.-muah!guess that's all.cheers.

Some day, when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold,I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft
There is nothing for me but to love you
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose
Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose
Touches my foolish heart.

if only...

2007-05-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

today,fuck my geog paper luh.and math was difficult like kill me would you?cuz i have a feeling i'm not gonna do well for SAs.bummer.RAHH!!!!! :'( first lit now geog.

spidyman iii with smallfart.was good i guess.yeah la yeah la,i'm sure evryone's been to that asses blog and she's said that i cried during the movie the ending was a tear jerker luh okay?anyway,yeah,bought mummy's day present.so proud of myself can't wait to give mummy dearest.i don't really feel like talking about my day,don't know why.rahh.

love me,
choose me,
pick me?

to me your the sweetest thing.

2007-05-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

i'm not even close to being almost there.

today,lit paper first.i wanted to :'( after it,like badly.cuz it's my best subject and i couldn't do it.and then ss made it worse cuz i didn't study.SAs are fucked up luh.ugh.but the day ended off alright.thanks bestbest,iloveyouuuu!-muah!

You light me up and then I fall for you
You lay me down and then I call for you
Stumbling on reasons that are far and few
I'd let it all come down and then some for you
Pretty baby,don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
Pretty baby,why can't you see
You're the one that I belong to?

it could've been,
1year,4months.

you can't have us both.
choose me,
pick me,
love me?

2007-05-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

as you can tell the previous post was written by sophia lee.thick skinned ass.hurr

today pe was tremedously laughable.but not enough to make me high.the walk to the train station from smallfart's house was though.hurr.i know i'm supposed to sound happy but i don't know why i don't.maybe it's cuz i feel rather fucked up cuz i've been thinking of things that are really bothering me.RAHH!and my papers start on thursday.i haven't studied a single ounce of fuckshit that i'm supposed to know.ugh.today at her house i stared at the ss book for like two hours.while that ass of a sophia lee slept.i felt like crying cuz i couldn't bring myself to wake her up,she was so shagged.so i wollowed in my lonliness luh. :'( you owe me big time sucker.and my massage!yeah so i stuck around for awhile longer.she got up to shower then after awhile sent me to the station.without her....ahem,she'll kill me if i say.i'll shut up now.

and i can't believe that your my man,
and you get to kiss me baby just because you can.

instead of you thinking of me when your with her,
it might just be the other way round.
fuck that.

two more days :'(

2007-05-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

I LOVE SOPHIA LEE :D

i'm so gonna edit this.i know i am, sigh.anyway, hope jamie's happy.

2007-05-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

boy,i love you so..

has anybody ever felt this way?
has anybody been ripped apart?
anybody give everything to the one they love?
am I the only one left behind?
am I the only one who hates goodbyes?
god I know this can't go on forever..
and its times like these when i think of you and i wonder if you think of me.

fuck it.

i set you free.
but,i hope our love will bring you back to me.
cuz your my evrything,think you know that by now.

tell me if i should listen to what she told you and not spend so much time with you.
cuz it really can't hurt much more then it does now,
can it?

2007-05-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

it kills me.
but,
i miss you so.

2007-05-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

nothing you confess could make me love you less.
-
your my every minute of my evryday.

do you think of me when your with her?

2007-05-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

i don't manipulate and i've wanted you here all along.i wish you'd understand.cuz i try hard to for you.

i felt like i lost my whole world when you got onto that bus.i don't know why i acted the way i did.you don't give in the way you used to.i think i took that for granted.you've reserved that for someone else.i don't even know if it still hurts you to see me cry.but that doesn't matter.all i am is sorry.for everything that i've ever said or done to destroy everything you see in me.i just wanna be the me i used to be.the one you loved so.but i don't know what's holding me back.i just wanted you to come back for awhile for me to talk to you.i'm quite sure i'd have trouble saying what i have to.but you didn't give me a chance.maybe you've given me too many.maybe only i think i should give the one i love countless chances.but really i just wished you'd given me a little while.i called your name.but it seemed to soft cuz you got on the bus anyway.you didn't even look at me.maybe you've got all you need right in the palm of your hands and i'm not there.i just wish i'd stop making you this unhappy.

i miss the feeling of your hand in mine.

2007-05-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

if you see my girl just tell her i miss her smile,
tell her i'm counting the minutes,gonna see her in a little while
i know when she holds on to me,she's the one thing that i could never live without
tell her i love her.

say you love me please.
say you'll put my heart at ease.

2007-04-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.
i'd rather have you then anyone else in the world.